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8th-May-2007 07:08 pm - nakakatamad

pucha. ang natatamad na tao ay matatamad kahit saan siya dalhin.
nakakatamad din dito. pwe. peromasarap ang mga gulay at noodles.
ang dali ng trabaho. hindi ako napapagod. tamad na tamad na naman ako. shet

tags:tamad
mood:lazy
music:some thai song na rock yata

5th-Apr-2007 03:40 am - a matter of perspective yo!

We alam ko nakakasawa na talaga magrekalamo tungkol sa mga nakakabagot na occupation. Ako rin, natatamad na sa kakareklamo tungkol sa pagiging nakakatamad ng lahat lahat.

Bwiset.

Ang saya na sana ng ganitong walang trabaho. Tambay bobo araw araw. Di nagugutom. Masaya ket papano. E bakit di pa rin fulfilling dahil walang trabaho?

Bakit kapag may trabaho nakakaatat ang pagiging tambay. E pero pag tambay, di mo naman made-deny yung fact na parang di ka kumpleto dahil wala kang trabaho.

Therefore, dapat magtrabaho.

Dapat humanap at pumili ng trabaho na matitiis at di basta basta pwedeng layasan. Yung itatali ako. Yun ang dapat sa ken. Sana dumating yung mania na mapapapirma ako ng papel para di ako basta basta makalayas.

Marunong akong maghintay. E pero tama na siguro ang kakaisip ko na espesyal ako at parang pelikula ang buhay ko, na biglang may dadating na espesyal at kikislap ang mga mata ko. E pano pag walang dumating? Dapat humanap ng trabaho. Ang simple at normal na buhay ay may trabaho. Tama.

At sobra na ang pagrereklamo ko at pagiging not-right-in-the-head-wannabe.
If all things fail, compare.

Di pa rin naman ako ang pinaka-talo at pinaka-argabyado sa lahat.

mood:sparkling eyes
music:rest of my life, rilo kiley

15th-Mar-2007 08:49 am - anhedonic

wala. asar na asar nako.
aalis nako.
pwe.
pakyu all.

hahaha.
nakakatamad ang buhay ko.

tags:work blah
location:opis na blah
music:wala

28th-Feb-2007 08:24 am - E is for engot

A year ago when I was still teaching Koreans person to person, I had a student named Sunny. I like her and she's really CHEERFUL. So one time, in class, I asked her, and mistakes are of course very normal, but when she answered, she had glow in her eyes, and she was really excited because she was SURE of her answer.

Ivy: What does E in e-mail stand for?
Sunny:  Ah!!!
Ivy: Yes?
Sunny: INTERNET!!!!

Ivy: uh, Sunny, internet starts with an I.
Sunny: oh

And then we burst out laughing.

Today, I have a new student (we have classes over the phone). The page on his books is about e-pals.

Ivy:  Jonathan, do you know another word for pal?
Jonathan: Yes, teacher. Friend.
Ivy: That's right. What about e? What does e in e-pal stand for?
Jonathan: Internet?

This time, it wasn't that funny though. And I cannot make fun of him, because he's really young and he sounded serious.
I miss Sunny.

tags:shong shang
location:tiny square sa office
mood:okay
music:no music, bawal music sa office. yuck.

11th-Feb-2007 01:46 pm - I miss David.

So crush ko si David.

( He has perfect teeth and didn't even wear braces. )

tags:crush
music:all down here from here, a new found glory

8th-Feb-2007 11:52 pm - bankrupt bum

I quit my job last friday.

I have been making abrupt-supposed-to-be life-changing decisions this week. I am so confused but I am not unhappy. (Well, I'm not exactly happy, but at least I am not sad so I guess that's good. )

Last Friday, I've never felt so excited and hopeful. I couldn't even sleep Thursday night. I was free and I have my new found direction. Because:
1. I have decided that I am going to enrol for an MA degree this summer. Though I haven't decided which major, I am sure I will enrol, and that is something I really want to do.
2. I have a new job and it is far from home and I'll have to take the bus every morning and it's really fun because I like taking the bus though I don't get enough chances to.
3. I have a lot of new books! I don't know when to finally sit down and start reading them, but at least I know that when I want to read, I have something to grab.

There. Happy. Hopeful. I HAVE.

And oh, before Friday ended, I have decided I am going to take Art Studies. Wow. I have a direction. I am so so so overwhelmed.

And then Monday came.
Well, apparently, all I was after, I guess, were the fancy bus rides in the morning. After three times of going to my new workplace (which is really pretty because it is located in a posh building and is brightly lit), I've had my fix. I sent the boss a text message, I won't be coming back again. Welcome bumhood.

But I still have the MA thing to get me to look forward to something. That is my anchor. I'll have that as something I could hold on to now that I am again starting to question the purpose of my existence. Yuck. Haha. (I mean going back to school couldn't possibly the sole purpose of my life, haha, but it is something to do, it's something to have. Not having anything will drive ~~people~~ me crazy.

And then I applied for a job, six companies. I got accepted six times. I withdrew my application four times, and said yes to the two and took it back the day after. When did I become so sure of myself? Ang kapal din talaga ng mukha ko para mamili. Yuck.

Thursday and I am still unemployed. I don't feel sad though. And even though I am afraid because I've got credit card bills to pay, I can't find in my heart the part that regrets the decisions I have made this week. I'll take it as nature's way of telling me that those decisions were meant to be. Super super yuck.

Why is it so fucking easy for some people to know what they want?

What do I want?

And when I think I have finally chosen THE one, why do I always feel like I am going to miss a lot of better things?

tags:bored
location:ate lhorjy's
mood:rejuvenated
music:the stone roses, she bangs the drums

6th-Sep-2006 05:53 pm - dahil naramdaman ku na ulit ang presensya ni yen

eto na ang a few months overdue pictures that duwem owes us.
para kay

lelelulu at

bastardmoon <3

( last december, or january yata )

24th-Jul-2006 07:28 pm - because helen is okay, yehey!!!

for the longest time, we finally heard from helen again. and so we went to bulacan and slept over.

( super super fun )

mood:excited
music:punk ass bitch, wheatus

16th-Jul-2006 06:55 pm - pirates and sleepyheads

reza and i went to see pirates of the caribbean. whoa. parang ginupit sa kalahati. nakakaasar. at mas nakakaasar pa kasi merong palng extra scene na hindi namin nakita dahil di namin tinapos yung credits. pwe.

at siyempre may picture kami sa tabi ni johnny.

( the rest of saturday )

mood:frustrated

15th-Jul-2006 03:23 am - half-baked costume party

not everyone dressed up. bleh. but it was a little fun because i get to be alice in wonderland.

my best costume picture was with dennis. he's my favorite classroom neighbor. he came as "his concept" of god. dennis just quitted. today is his last day. i am going to miss him.